I’m sleeping a lot more
My body is trying to get ready
My cervix is barely there
yesterday they shoved a donut like device
inside me to try to offer it more strength
but it’s really the point in the
story where we try anything
to get one more day.
they shoved something else up
inside me today
to make sure my waters weren’t leaking.
I feel like they’re filling me up.
while babies are dropping lower
and lower into a place that
they are as low as they can go before
taking a breath of the same air I’m
we don’t have a baby problem.
my body is squeezing and tightening
and it’s making me more achy
and driving them out of me.
and here we are on the ledge.
we are waiting in a hospital bed
sleeping toes to nose and nose to toes
cuddled against each other
two parents unready and lonely
who are holding all this on our shoulders
without others truly realizing how heavy it is.
a waiting game.
its a waiting game.
it’s a this could get intense quickly game
it’s a you could be knocked out and cut open game.
it’s a your babies could be away from your body
for so long game.
we are in a traumatic situation
trying to be strong
because we have no other choice.
so, until they come I will
sleep in this hospital bed
with my wifes feet next to my nose
cuddling close to her
in mesh panties and a big round belly
and two babies contantly moving
their way closer out of my body.