life was born out of my belly.

My muscles in my abdomen are extremely sore now. My wife said they held me open and pushed and pulled to get the babies out of the six inch cut right above my pubic bone. I’ve held the belief that csections are the absolute latest resort and people shouldn’t give into mindless intervention, but after…

when your postpartum feels co-oped.

Postpartum is supposed to be a very special time. It’s a time of healing and taking care of the new mother and a time to adjust to the new normal. This has been the absolute worst time in my life. The days following my mother’s death was difficult – planning her funeral at 20, writing…

everything is a procedure (trauma affects everything).

Catheters feel like I’m seven I know the pattern now standing in Jean shorts my mom’s asleep and his hands are rough and I don’t like this. they tried to convince me it’s the easiest way that I would need it. it burned and hurt and I didn’t want it. they finally took it out….